You

A picture is worth a thousand words
But a picture is all I have
Memories are all I have
Mom, what I wouldn't do
To exchange one more word with you


Bittersweet tears run down my cheeks
I remember the joyous times
I remember the painful times
Time.
All of it precious
What a wouldn't give for a little more
With you


To feel your arms around me today
To see you smile
To sing "Happy Birthday"
What I wouldn't do, Mom
To be with you.


I love you.
Still.
Always.

Thoughts on a Tuesday Evening...

I'm so amazed sometimes at how fast things change.

One year ago I didn't even know where God was leading my life... now I'm going to Sterling and majoring in something that I feel called to do - even though it wasn't at all "my plan". I stand in complete awe at the way that He leads and guides me.

So far, this year has been one of great rejoicing for me. I have tasted beautiful authentic freedom. I have had the opportunity to minister in many different avenues - youth, peers, as well as adults. God has been working on my heart and transforming my mind. No WAY am I perfect. But HE is at work in me... and that alone calls for great rejoicing.

Today I was reminded of God's incredible love for me. As I walked from class to class this morning, the sun on my face enveloped me in warmth. It's funny that I can feel so loved by my Maker simply by walking in His creation, but it's true. Joy fills my heart... especially on beautiful days that are warmer than 40 degrees... :)

Do you know this love? Do you know this joy? It can't be matched anywhere by anyone. Only Christ fills like this... and what He brings is lasting.

Remembering

Remembering

Salty tears roll down my cheeks

But I don’t wipe them away.

Remembering.

Many nights I’ve lain awake

Remembering.

I let music sweep me away

To another place

Remembering.

I still see your smile

And long for your arms around me

Remembering.

I watch a mother and daughter pair

Shopping together

Remembering.

It used to be you and I

Inseparable.

Remembering.

Your voice used to sing

In melody with mine

Remembering.

Your hand, so gentle

Yet filled with strength

Remembering

Crying in your arms

Fear gripping my heart

Remembering

Your smile so brilliant

Remembering.

The concern on your face

When I would fall down as a child

Remembering.

The sweet smell of your embrace.

Remembering.

Clothed in wisdom and guidance

You spoke.

Remembering.

But then, lying there helpless

Thin and hairless

Remembering.

Courage shown through

In your beautiful eyes

Remembering.

Crying out to God

In the middle of a field

Remembering.

I wanted so desperately for him to save you

Remembering.

Family game nights and movie nights

You always made everything so fun.

Remembering.

Our hearts almost felt as one.

Remembering.

Saying goodbye to you

That sunny November day

Remembering.

I held my crying sister

As they drove your earthly body away.

Remembering.

The deepest sorrow

Gripped my heart

Remembering.

But peace and hope

And a little glimmer of light

Remembering.

You are still gone

So I’m caught here

Remembering.