Complete

There is just something overwhelmingly beautiful about waiting on the Lord's plan.
He can write better stories than anyone else can

Watching His hand bless others abundantly through grace
Make me want to be obedient to the Lord's pace

I question.
I doubt.
I wonder if it's worth it.
Should I just do without?

"You'll just know" people say
But how will I know you've brought me the one
to whom I can give my heart away?

Lord, lead me.
I need you more than anything.
You've locked up my heart and taken the key.

Faithfulness is what I need
So blind me, close my eyes... until the time is right.
Purify every word and deed
I'm looking toward Your radiant light

Jesus, You alone can fulfill
Thank you for this abiding contentment
My one desire is to be in the center of Your will

But if... even in that place
There are no others
I'm confident that Your face
Will satisfy deeper than earthly lovers

Your beauty overwhelms me as I look
To You for the peace my heart craves
My paralyzing fear and shame You took
I praise You! Because Your love is a love that saves.

Please, dear Father, direct every step of mine.
Give me Your heartbeat
I pray continually: Not my will. Thine.
Only there am I satisfied, whole, and complete.

You

A picture is worth a thousand words
But a picture is all I have
Memories are all I have
Mom, what I wouldn't do
To exchange one more word with you


Bittersweet tears run down my cheeks
I remember the joyous times
I remember the painful times
Time.
All of it precious
What a wouldn't give for a little more
With you


To feel your arms around me today
To see you smile
To sing "Happy Birthday"
What I wouldn't do, Mom
To be with you.


I love you.
Still.
Always.

Thoughts on a Tuesday Evening...

I'm so amazed sometimes at how fast things change.

One year ago I didn't even know where God was leading my life... now I'm going to Sterling and majoring in something that I feel called to do - even though it wasn't at all "my plan". I stand in complete awe at the way that He leads and guides me.

So far, this year has been one of great rejoicing for me. I have tasted beautiful authentic freedom. I have had the opportunity to minister in many different avenues - youth, peers, as well as adults. God has been working on my heart and transforming my mind. No WAY am I perfect. But HE is at work in me... and that alone calls for great rejoicing.

Today I was reminded of God's incredible love for me. As I walked from class to class this morning, the sun on my face enveloped me in warmth. It's funny that I can feel so loved by my Maker simply by walking in His creation, but it's true. Joy fills my heart... especially on beautiful days that are warmer than 40 degrees... :)

Do you know this love? Do you know this joy? It can't be matched anywhere by anyone. Only Christ fills like this... and what He brings is lasting.